Nope.

This post is supposed to be posted up yesterday.

I can’t sleep again, possibly due to the Teh Tarik taking its effect.

Anyway, I am sorry that I haven’t been blogging constantly, because my blogging vibes are not working. And also I have once again started my old school routine of writing inside a diary. It feels definitely better because I can write anything in it. Lame, unfunny, funny, angry, just anything, and I won’t be judged. And so regarding the previous post, I have concluded that it must be due to the PMS, haha, I am really alright.

Just now I went to OG at Bugis with my family. As usual, shopping with my father around sucks because it will never be my turn to buy stuffs, he is always the dominant shopper, when he is around, all of us will accompany him to see his clothes and shoes. Sigh. Male species huh? And btw, I did see something which I LOVED so much! The Billabong mustard colour shoulder/sling bag!! And the Billabong slippers!! But they are so expensive that I really don’t bear to ask my mum to buy for me although she volunteered. Thinking back, why am I so stupid? The bag costs $69.90 and the slippers costs $29.90. Ok, nothing unusual for Billabong. Anyway, I must really commend Billabong that their stuffs are really getting better and nicer!! I love their tees, footwear, bags, hats, and wallets! My brother, an idiot doesn’t think that way. He thinks that Billabong is for secondary school kids. Typical stereotype. Why? Poly year 1 cannot wear Billabong ar? He says that the bag I choose is so not the style of the girls nowadays. As if he understand my style. Now I know I cannot shop with him around in the future.

Ok, so in order for me to get the bag, I need money right? FRIENDS, IF GOT ANY JOB LOBANG, PLEASE JIO ME!!!! T.T Hahahaha! Seriously, I don’t mind doing any type of job, as long as the pay is $5 or more, haha! I am really so desperate that I am thinking to ask my mum’s friend for any promoter job, see I am that desperate. I already vouch to myself never to be promoter already, for I don’t want to be involved in those political bullshits again. Sigh.

This week is going to be another tough one for me. Tuesday-G&T test, Wednesday- Interview roleplay and lastly, the one which I dread most, is sociology presentation which is on Thursday, you know why I really hate this? Because people from other group have all presented and seriously, some of them can really present well, look at audience’s eyes, speak loud and clear, going up without cue cards, all these are what I really need to learn man, I really don’t want to disgrace myself in front of so many people I am not close with.

So on Friday, I am TOTALLY FREE! YAY! I may be going to Funan IT mall to get a camera, so rush because I am going to Msia on Sat, I wanna take many many photos and start making my blog colourful with many photos! Haha!

Oh yeah, I sort of have thought it through clearly the past week, I want to thank some friends for teaching me that “Don’t care what others think about you, just be yourself.” It is really a coincidence that some of my friends, whom don’t know each other, happen to tell me the same thing. I guess it must be me being really so self-conscious that they must tell me that, haha. Anyway, I feel touched when friends say this type of stuffs to me, they often act as a confidence booster. Really. However, I have also realized that I do not get people’ trust easily, be it friends or family. My cousin once told me that it is my own fault that people do not listen to me, because I don’t give them the reason to do so, my words are deemed as not important, I am not serious enough. Like for example, when my family members are having a discussion, even if I join in the talk, I won’t be able to influence any of their decision . Friends too, when I say something, it is really rare that they would actually consider my decision or see from my point of view, or when I say something which is really correct, they won’t believe it, perhaps I don’t give them reason to. Sigh. I was really sad to hear this from my cousin’s mouth, sad not because she told me that, but because it is true.

And so, you can predict that the next update won’t come any sooner! Since this entry is so long. My secret to writing a long update? Haha, don’t blog inside your blog, I mean don’t write in inside your dashboard. Write it inside Microsoft word. Anytime when you feel like blogging. I don’t know if you have the same feeling as me. When I see the blank space on the dashboard, I forget what I want to write already, it is really wasted. So when you have a lot to write, write immediately!
GOODBYE! I am renewing my passport tmr, damn sian, must wake up very early!

你知道吗。。。

有时，真的觉得做人很累，因为不管你做什么事，别人都不满意。

我好多次问过我自己，为什么我会受到这种待遇，我哪里做错了？我只是比别人爱说话，比别人爱说笑，比别人脾气好，为什么要这样对我呢？为什么？或许我应该改掉我的性格吧。。。可是，又不是没有尝试过？没有一次是成功的。

请别再伤害我了，我的心不能承受不了。

Papercut.

Oh. I’m so fly! Haha, I am really really happy, because just for today, 2 presentations and 1 project submission are down. But of course we are still left with bcs, sociology and geog&travel, which I (we) will start chionging on Friday!

I feel like getting a part-time job, because I want to take my mind off certain things and have the freedom to spend. As I always thought, working part-time is a way to relieve stress from all the studying and vice versa. But of course, I know if I really have a job now, I will start complaining also, haha, never satisfied with current condition.

I hereby (proudly) announce, I no longer love taiwan idol dramas! I think I have lived past the age of that already, now I prefer HK shows! 

And, the subject SSM which we are taking next semester is really a devilish devil based on what the devilish teacher introduced to us earlier on just now. How to say. The feeling is of fear and anxiety.

On a happy note, I am going to Kota Kinabalu in Msia for the geog&travel educational trip during June, along with Jassy and Xiao zheng! Haha notti notti! I hope it will be fun!!

I am in love with Lor mee, have been having them for 2 consecutive days at 216! Hope tmr I will get to eat the Ban mian, and then Roast Milk Tea at Drinktea after school! Enjoying life right? Haha!

I am very sad too, because I have yet to get any new year clothes (hopefully this friday with the Nv rens, haha!!), and I don’t know what to do with my hair, sigh, I don’t want to go back Msia as cumo. My cousin says there is a really good rebonding deal at Hougang Mall for only $38 (includes cut and wash also!), perming goes for $58! Anyone wants to perm the hair? Haha!

BYE BYE BYE!

 

French navy, my sailor.

These few days I am just hooked on updating in my blog. Even if I have other more important things to work on.

I am totally in love with the song I posted in my previous post!

So tomorrow is another long day…

Hope it is a good day and I will be happy until the last lesson!

Quite something

Ahaha, so I just changed my template to the old one again, feel more warm here.

Anyway, I did all the miscellaneous – ob tutorial, updating the deadline notebk, packed all the worksheets and notes, looking for pictures of g&t  but yet, I didn’t do the most important thing – find an econs article and start the analysis. The doings of the procrastination devil in me.

I must DO THAT TMR! And I must also take special note not to ever make any new year resolutions again because they’ll never come true for me anyway.

Read Xiaxue’s blog and found out that she has given away Pumpkin (her cute pooch) , don’t know why but I feel really sad for her! I kind of miss Pumpkin. I guess dogs have their goods and bads.

I really have no idea of which country do I really want to go for the compulsory educational trip. Contemplating either Msia or S’pore? I don’t feel too good going to Japan, don’t know why. There are just too many things to consider man. Actually Mt kinabalu also not bad?

Just a question, what if you have a dream but you don’t have what it takes to make that dream come true, what would you do?

All from the heart

So, socio essay, cs roleplay and cs r.j are finally out of my life, worth celebrating! But next is micro article analysis, I am so dead for micro….I don’t understand a single shit about this subject despite going for the lectures RELIGIOUSLY. Sian.  And stressed up too. So many things to study for end of semester..

Is apologising a very difficult thing to do? Yes I admit sometimes I find it hard to apologise too, but most of the times, when it’s time to say that word, I will say it. Why can’t some people understand neh? It really just reflects badly on you. As if the whole world revolves around you.

I realized there are so many so many people I haven’t contacted for a long time, Grace, Yan ru, Xin yi, hmm…the hectic school life isn’t the cause, even without it, there is also a high possibility that I wouldn’t contact them. Why does life have to be like that? “People come and go.”? I badly wish this quote didn’t exist in the first place. The more people you meet, the more people you will lose contact with, is that true? If so, I rather just stay inside my own clique of friends and don’t make any new friends from now on.

I also miss some of my ex-colleagues, people like Stella, Kim, I really enjoy working with them, so much fun. I don’t have the phone number of Kim, I don’t know if this is considered as a “tradition”, but I rarely ask number from my colleagues and vice versa, perhaps we don’t think there is a need to contact each other after work? Kim….hai…don’t think I am able to find her or meet her anymore, I remembered on the last day of my work, I wrote a long letter to bid farewell to her, because that day was coincidentally her off-day, I passed the letter to the other auntie, told her to pass it to Kim for me. Why am I so stupid? Why didn’t I write my contact number inside the letter??? STUPID IDIOT!

I am not feeling emotional, it’s just that there are just too many regrets in life.

One good news for myself is that T.O.P is out of my head already, hahaha, that’s fast right! Compared to my other idols last time. My craze for him only last for about 1 week? Perhaps I don’t understand Korean language, and there isn’t really much information on him online.

Love.  First time talking about true love in this little space here. What I want to say now is actually my take on love currently. I admit, sometimes I feel a little disheartened that at this age of mine, I still haven’t got a boyfriend before. When I see blogposts and tumblr posts on love( whether fall in or out of love), I will just continue to scroll scroll and scroll (xcept for friends’), because I can’t really understand why and what. Why are they hurting so much for their other half? What are they so happy for? I don’t get a single thing, because I’ve never been in love before. I really would like to have a taste of loving and missing a person LIKE CRAZY. But then I realized, good things you’ll have to wait right? I believe I can find a true love eventually and I will make sure it is a hong hong lie lie one. HAHAHA.  And I hope my wedding can be something like the Jake and Jill’s wedding (youtube it). So lively and different. I hope my friends are sporting enough to do that! Haha!

Wow, what a heartfelt entry!

A different-from-what-I-listen-to-genre-of-music  —   indie pop

But definitely a very nice song and video too!

More and more

Yay! Lipton tea and Tau sa piah.

Can’t believe semester 2 is ending soon too. So fast right! I think I have made the correct choice of entering poly.

I am glad I am no longer brooding over some matters. Don’t care what others do or act, as long as I believe in myself, everything is good as it is. Heah heah heah.

I think sleeping early is the best reward you can give to yourself on a busy weekday. But too bad there’s no reward for me tonight!

Well, there is, below! HAHAHA!

SHUAI DAI LE! How I wished I was the girl inside, get to kiss him you know!! Shuang bao le that girl.

My everyday.

So today was:

1.30pm-woke up

3pm-Did socio essay

6.30pm-Finished socio essay

8+pm-Went out with mother

10pm-Met cc at ntuc

11pm-Returned home and did CS.

12.30am-BLOGGING HERE!

Sometimes, I don’t know what I want. And sometimes I do, but it isn’t easy to be achieved. Nothing is easy in this world.

I want to blog, but what do I write here?

My topman

YO YO! Aba aba!

So currently I am obsessed with this guy. When I am eating, I think of him. When I am on bus ride, I think of him. Just like how I was obsessed with Nick jonas and Jesse mccartney last time. His voice is so manly!

Haha, ok, so he is….

 T.O.P from Big bang!

Listen to him live and you’ll fall for him, MAN! SO HOT! I REALLY LIKE HIM! SO WANT TO MEET HIM IN REAL LIFE MAN!  Hai….

I think when you have an idol, you shouldn’t keep talking about it if your friends don’t know him because they will never understand.  I’ve finally learnt and so here I am, talking about my idol in my own blog, haha!

Anyway, random things:

1) I think I have phobia of Microecons already because I cannot seem to catch up in this subject!

2)I hope my pimples get better, because CNY is coming soon!

3)I feel like participating in the Chingay parade as a volunteer but it falls on the study week!! WHY WHY WHY!!

Ok bye~

 

Nice shoes.

Hi friends! Long time no see! And I am going to tell you something, which is, this pair of shoes is on my wishlist right now! I saw someone wearing them in the coffee shop and I immediately fall in love with them.

Grey+rose colour!

I really love it so much! The picture don’t do the shoes justice at all. It really looked so nice and cool in reality!

I am going to get it someday. But so ex, on sale still $72 USD!

Back to reality.